Waiting Game

Either the Sarcoma is getting bigger, or the cold weather is making my leg more painful. Over the last couple of days the area on my inner thigh is starting to feel tighter, like someone has their hands wrapped around my leg and they are squeezing the life out of it. I am also starting to feel the cold foot more. I don't know if it has anything to do with the cancer, but when my leg has been bent for a while, it seems to be cutting off some blood flow. Straighten my leg and things feel normal again. Its not painful as such, I can just tell something is happening down there. I really cant wait to start this Radiotherapy.

I can't wear my jeans anymore. It is quite uncomfortable around the area, and to me the swelling looks obvious through the jeans. Maybe not to other people, but I can tell and it makes me feel uncomfortable. Over the last couple of weeks I have been wearing jogging bottoms. This is defiantly for comfort reasons rather than making a fashion statement. I hate the things to be honest, I look like a right scally at times, but comfort is the main priority. Maybe it is time, as Emma suggested, to invest in some combat trousers or something similar.

One of my main worries over the past couple of weeks has been of the financial kind. My current contract with this employer was coming to a close at the end of January, but the Project Manager has since told me he would like me to run another job for 6-8 weeks near Delamere. He is a good man. He wouldn't want to see me go through any financial hardship whilst undergoing Radiotherapy and has done his best to keep me going work wise. They also understand that I will be doing my daily trips to Clatterbridge Hospital sometime soon for my Radiotherapy treatment and have been very accommodating. They have no obligation at all to keep me here, but they are finding uses for me and are very understanding.

No update on the CT scan results as of yet, I will call Sarah (Sarcoma Nurse) tomorrow to see if there have been any developments. I also need to book to see the Oncologist to discuss the Radiation treatment, still not heard anything on that front.

I recently came across an article which tells of Sarah's recognition for her hard work. I feel blessed to have a good team working for me. Sarah Massey's Christmas Star Award